This morning, driving to get some errands done, I was suddenly hit by overwhelming sadness. With tears streaming down my face, I pulled over to get a hold of myself. What I feared is here.

Missing you, loving you has taken it's toll.

Still, to this day... I love you.

full circle...

People always say, "everything happens for a reason", only it is up to us to find what that reason could be.


I never questioned why you came back into my life. I just figured, the timing must have been right for me to find you again. And I am glad for the friendship we shared, something that never got affected with the passing of time and the distance between us... maybe... till now.

Time has never been on our side, I should have known that. It was time that robbed us of a chance to explore life together back then. Destiny intervened and gave us another chance to be together once more. But as before, time stepped in. We were too late. Do we wait another twenty years? Do we even have that much time? We never do...

A few hours out of a lifetime... enough to love you. At times when all is quiet, I see you and wish... for a lifetime together instead of just a few hours, to be able to hold your hand, see you smile, hear you laugh, to wake up next to you, or just watch you sleep, but most of all, for the chance to show you how much I do love you. I don't say it much, maybe not even show it at times, but that's just the way it has to be... because you are not mine.

I love you and I miss you... but I miss my friend too. Life has already taken so much that I sometimes wonder exactly what it has given me. But then, of course, it comes full circle... you.

to love somebody...

Just when I thought I was too numb to feel
you came along and showed me what is real
for a moment time stopped allowing me to see
what life could have been if I have you with me

but then, that was just a dream
something that I would not want to wish
for I love you enough to let you be
with someone you love even though it is not me.