seeking confusion...

I hope someday I can fully understand the myriad of emotions that surfaced during our weekend together. I tried to plan, to prepare myself to face the unknown that your visit entail. Still, I was caught off guard. Perhaps I underestimated what we had twenty years ago. There were so many questions left unanswered... and all it took was one kiss.

A kiss... everything else faded. You, me, locked in a warm embrace; your lips, mine, seeking what we lost... and then was found.

I lost you once... but then I didn't know what I would be missing. And now you are here, for the moment, I am yours, though you will never be mine. Time lost recovered in those few hours... memories made to last a lifetime.

Time passed too quickly and you are now back where you belong... and here I stayed, somewhat confused, unwilling to find the truth, and a little sad because what had been left unsaid twenty years ago still remained unsaid. And then again, it could only be me, and not you. Perhaps that too will remain unanswered.

Friends above all else... more, never less.

one weekend...

One weekend... a few days out of a lifetime. That was all that we had. It doesn't seem fair, but then, who am I to complain? Somehow, things will turn out right, but it will never be the same. Too much, too little... I wish it could be more but will never wish it less.

Too late... maybe. A perfect fit... definitely. But reality has to be faced, and so you must leave. I will keep the memories until such time when maybe, fate would let us share more than a weekend of our lives.